Tag: Self Reflection

Write Down 10 Things You Love About Yourself.

I have been giving myself mini monthly goals and ‘Write down 10 things you love about yourself’ has been one of those mini goals to do. I’ve been putting it off for a while and honestly it’s because I felt like it would be hard for me to come up with 10 different things without having to look up some ideas. If I couldn’t list those off the top if my head, then what would that mean? Would it mean that I don’t love myself enough? Would it mean that I need help? I didn’t want to fall into that way of thinking, so procrastination. I finally tried it and I was able to list my 10 things one right after the other. I love myself a lot more than I gave myself credit for. Here’s to this silly little journal prompt, you should try it too ♡


10 Things I Love About Myself (in no order):

·𖥸· ─ I am a hard worker. I work the hours that I’m scheduled plus more. I don’t call off my shifts unless it’s really needed. Sometimes when work should be covered, I still work it. Even when I’m not at work, I am working.
·𖥸· ─ I’m pretty cute, as in i’m a cute person. I’m not referring to my looks, but it’s more of my personality or aesthetic. I basically am Hello Kitty in a human form.
·𖥸· ─ I am a good friend. I pride myself in those who I keep around and in my circle. I do what I can for my friends whether it’s physical or emotional. I support my friends in what they do in all forms. I have a crazy work schedule, but I do try to make it to events and my friends’ life moments. I’m here to support their endeavors and will spread the word around or share what they post. I try to be a safe space for them to come to with no judgement unless they ask.
·𖥸· ─ I’m an independent person. It’s true, I am just a girl, but I’m an independent one. If something goes wrong, I am the one fixing it or finding solutions the best I can without asking for help. I do love that about myself, but it can also be my weakness. I’ve been an independent person for what feels like my entire life, so it also is hard for me to ask for help. I do know that I can depend on myself though. I provide for myself in my daily life and can afford the luxuries in my life. I’m not rich by any means, so don’t get any ideas there LOL.
·𖥸· ─ My ability to do solo adventures. I’m not sure if it’s been noticeable, but I’ve been doing a lot of solo adventures. If this was 4 years ago, I would have just stayed home and not even go to events by myself. I wouldn’t even go to a restaurant by myself back then. I do all of that on my own now. I don’t miss out on events just because I have to be by myself. I actually really do enjoy my own company, I enjoy it so much that I’ve been doing solo trips out of the state and still having a great time.
·𖥸· ─ I’m passionate. I’m passionate my hobbies, I’m passionate about certain things like topics and views. I’m passionate about love, my friends and family.
·𖥸· ─ I am strong enough. I am strong enough to keep moving on and moving forward on things I choose to do or from events in my life. I’m strong enough to not let bad or negative things stop me from being myself. I’m strong enough to know I needed help and seek out therapy on my own. I’m strong enough to accept that I am broken in certain areas of my life and tend to them.
·𖥸· ─ Drive. I didn’t realize this until a friend pointed it out (thank very much). I also love the drive that I have. I’m looking to be better, do better, feel better always and I try my best to always be better. I’m constantly working on myself in many different ways, i’m also always looking into new things to do or trying new things. My drive is strong.
·𖥸· ─ Emotionally intelligent. Not everyone can be emotionally intelligent and sometimes being emotionally intelligent can also be bad. I can feel small and big feelings. I can feel simple and complex feelings. I can let myself feel, then express it in words. I can be open to understand the emotions or feelings of others. I make space and hold that space for others and myself.
·𖥸· ─ Last one on the list, but I am me. I love me, I am Sally. I know who I am and have not changed my authenticity to try to compete or to be better than anyone else. I don’t change who I am to try to impress others or to fit into peoples lives. I understand that I’m not everyones favorite and people will dislike me, hate me, think i’m annoying, think whatever of me and I’m completely fine with that. I myself don’t like every person I meet either, that’s just life. Everyone gets the same me, 100% authentic Sally.

I wrote everything in a journal first, then typed it in the blog. I won’t lie, I feel a little self centered sharing my list out there, but you know what? Why should I be scared to be self centered? What will a list of what I like about myself do? I’m wish more people shared what they loved about themselves. I want people to be happy about themselves and I want more people to celebrate themselves. It’s absolutely fine to be about you. Show yourself some love too. ♡

2026.

My Dearest Readers,

To my most esteemed and beloved SALLY♡THINGS readers, I offer my sincerest apologies for the excruciating torment you have endured whilst awaiting the arrival of my next literary delight. Your patience is as admirable as it is commendable, and it weighs heavily upon my heart to have kept you in such a state of eager anticipation. Pray, do forgive me, for the muse of inspiration shall soon grace us once more, and together we shall embark upon a most enchanting journey through the written word and journey of this life of mine. As we find ourselves immersed in the embrace of the year 2026, with a fortnight and a month having gracefully passed, I do hope it has bestowed upon each of you its most benevolent charms. With the occasion of Valentine’s Day having cast its enchanting spell, I am filled anew with inspiration, eager to resume my delightful endeavors upon this humble blog. This month, dear friends and readers, has blossomed with an abundance of love, lifting my spirits to the highest. It is with immense pleasure that I welcome you back, and I look forward to sharing in this journey of love and creativity once more.
With all my heart, yours ever devotedly, SALLY♡THINGS.

Update.

Hi, hello there. How are ya? I was feeling a little Bridgerton inspired, but I will admit it took me forever to write. I also haven’t watched the latest Bridgerton season, so please nooooo spoilers. I’ll start it after I finish watching Sex and the City. I am also aware that I am very behind on that too. I guess I just love shows were people write? How fitting that is.

2026. Where do I start? New year, same me? I can thankfully say that, I did not enter as the same me. There’s been a lot of self growth that’s been happening behind this computer screen. I have spent a lot of time on myself and will continue to do so. There’s not much to really update everyone on about me. I haven’t had any drastic lifestyle changes or hit any big life milestones, but I have celebrated many small steps in my own personal life. I guess, I have adventured a little more this winter than usual. Winter has been wintering here in Grand Rapids, but we have had a lot of sunny days at least. I’ve been feeling a lot happier this winter than past ones. Going into 2026 has been a wild ride for me, but every thing has been slowly coming into place. Tết or Lunar New Years just passed, so I had my “second” new years. Another start over right? I’m wishing all good health, fortune and blessings. Chúc mừng năm mới! Valentine’s Day just also passed, but you know that I celebrate all month long. I just love, Love. I have my annual Galentine’s party coming up, so I hope you’re not anti-Valentine’s just yet. I’m excited to see what i’m going to bring this year. Whatever it is, I hope it’s still all with love.

Hello 2026.

My goals list this year has a lot of the same repeating goals, not because I didn’t achieve them last year, but because they are goals that you can never reach the end of. They are goals that are good for your soul and make you a better person always.

2026 goals and intentions ♡
⊹˚. ♡. Film Photography. Last year I bought a film camera, a Canon AE-1 SLR 35mm and started to use it a little without any knowledge of anything. Only half of the photos turned out good. This year I want to fully learn all the settings and how to shoot film in different photography styles. I want to be a pro at using my film camera.
⊹˚. ♡. SALLY♡THINGS Growth. More content, more interactions, more milestones achieved. With more content being created, it also helps with preserving moments and having memories to look back on. It’s not all about getting paid, it’s to also save memories.
⊹˚. ♡. Online Business. This has been a goal of mine for a while, but I never really took the steps forward. This year I hope to have my online store up at least or close!
⊹˚. ♡. Travel. I want to see more, explore more, adventure more. There’s so much outside of Grand Rapids and Michigan, but also so much here that I haven’t seen yet. Big and small travels are fine. Solo traveling and with others is also the goal. I have friends from all over and I want to see them too. One monthly goal I have for the year is to solo adventure at least two times a month.
⊹˚. ♡. Dream Car. It’s finally time to get my dream car. It’s nothing crazy expensive, it’s pretty affordable (and used lol), but it’ll be better than the my current car. Last year, I’ve had so many issues with my car, I put in basically a good down deposit for a new car into my old car last year. My little blueberry has done me good and allowed me to visit loved ones in friends and I’ll be forever grateful for that, but it’s time to get something I want.
⊹˚. ♡. Slowing down and resting. If you know me, you know that I am always on the go whether it’s work or travels. I really want to prioritize slowing down a little and resting more. I definitely get burnt out more than a couple times a year and my body pays for it. I’m not getting any younger, so it’s important to take care of myself.
⊹˚. ♡. Healing. Healing will always be a goal of mine. I want to grow into my potential and you can’t do that unless you work on yourself. I want to heal all parts of myself. The healing goal isn’t just for me, I also want to heal my relationships with others. They aren’t bad, they are good, but they can always be better, get into those DMC, deep meaningful conversations.
⊹˚. ♡. Love and happiness. To do all things with love, to pour love, to be love. I am love and I intend to be love at the fullest that I can be – for myself and for others. Life is meant to be enjoyed and lived to the fullest. I want to continue to build a happy life for myself. Self love is self care and showing your love to others helps you see what type of person you are. I intend to only be love to those who support me, earned it and love me. It’s not meant for everyone.

2025, you were filled with love, strength, courage, and lessons. Please let 2026 be just as fulfilling, but with more positivity. Remember to be kind to one another, I hope everyone gets the year they deserve.

With all my heart, yours ever devotedly, SALLY♡THINGS.

Slowing It Down, November.

Slow it down, November. Read it again, slow it down, November. I have been quiet and yet not quiet at all. It’s very confusing unless you are in my day to day life, but thats okay. I went crazy with going out in October, but this month, I really just want to be left with less sound and less company. I want to take more moments for myself and have quiet moments, so I can hear my own thoughts and moments – sober. Yes, sober.

It’s an easy habit for me to fall into drinking to mask feelings and I’ve been very open about this with myself in the past. The past few months, I was falling into that darker path, so November I wanted to slow down and sit with my feelings, thoughts, moods, etc. Slow it down. I’m not perfect, but I’m not going out 4X a week to a bar either. In November, I’ve gone out about four times vs. twelve times. I call that progress.

With November, my goal is to sit with myself (sober, of course) and feel my feelings, feel my hurt, feel my happiness, feel my thoughts and then give all of that a safe & thankful space to heal in. I hate that I’m in the same spot as previous years, I really do, but I’ve learned that I have a lot of love to give and a lot of love. I will always have love, thats who I am and who I will always be. I’m coming to terms with that. Slow it down.

I am trying to take a step back to not find myself, I know who I am, but to ground myself again. I can definitely say that I lost a piece of myself throughout the year. I know I fought with myself a lot this year to find a peace, when I was only stepping over my own boundaries. Slow it down and build yourself again. I’m choosing to do the work that I need to do, even if it feels the worse. Even if it feels the opposite. You just have to do it. Of course, I want to do all things with love, but I’m just learning that life really doesn’t work that way. Not everything can be done in love or with love. That’s a hard lesson to learn, but it doesn’t make you less of a loving person or that your love is or was any less. Slowing things down this month allows me to process what my mind knows, but what my heart still wants to deny. I can tell there will be more slow down months in the future. I have a lot of work for my heart to catch up with. I’m going to take my time to make sure I’m doing it right this time. Let me marinate in my feelings for a while, they need their time as well.

2025: January to March Photo Dump

I’m behind on the series and I can’t even tell you a summary of these months anymore. I’m just kidding. There’s so much that I want to say, but I can’t find the correct words to say it. There’s been so much ups and downs in the beginning of the year. I just want to thank my people for being with me and to thank myself for holding on.

January

February

March

Goodbye 2024, Hello 2025.

Yes, SALLY ♡ THINGS blog is still up and running for 2025! The end of the year and start of the new year blog is finally here. I told you that I was playing blog catch up. Since I’m a little behind, we get this cute 2-in-1 post ♡

Goodbye 2024.

In the beginning of 2024, I was parked on the top level of my college’s parking ramp just sitting in my car. Not having a good day at all. I was super emotional about a million different things, both positive and negative. I think I skipped my classes that day because I could not stop crying. I remember it was raining. That day I decided to try to calm my emotions down by journaling and instead of writing about my emotions, I tried to put my focus on what my goals and intentions were going to be for 2024. Writing about something that would bring more positivity forward was the mood that I wanted to try to set. That day I journaled two entries ‘2024 Goals and Intentions‘ and ‘2024 Blog Idea List‘. I think I ended up journaling in my car for three or four hours.

For 2024 Goals and Intentions, I wanted to come up with goals that were deeper than things like exercise more, get up early, drink more water, etc. I wanted the goals to be things that would help me become a better me and help with personal growth. Then when I came up with the goals, I wrote the intentions behind them or how I wanted to go about it. That way it wasn’t just a silly little self care goal, it now held a deeper meaning. I suggest everyone to do the same because it holds more value, is more meaningful and personable to yourself. It gives you a greater feeling when you complete it as well. Out of 16, I was able to cross off 10 goals that I completed in 2024. I call that a win and look, a win is a win!

A few completed goals with their intentions:

୨୧ Take more photos and videos. Print them out, save them, make montage videos, post them or whatever! I want to capture more memories and save/store them so they can be accessible in the future when I’m older.
୨୧ Live life/Be more present. Especially family, they are so important. Be more present in life. Live! Take in moments. Love life again. Don’t over work anymore and don’t over school. Live your best life Sally!
୨୧ Love and happiness ♡ I want to be more loving in everything and I want to remember 2024 as happy. The last few years have not been remembered quite well as happy, so this year will change. Let go of things that don’t belong and be okay with that.

For 2024 Blog Idea List, this was a list of topics that I wanted to blog about and write for the year. It was a list that I could come back to look at for ideas. I came up with 33 different topics and I wrote about 14 of those, but some topics have multiple blogs written about like travel blogs or food adventures. Don’t get me wrong, I do love my food and travel blogs, but some new content is on the way. A little less than half is not too bad, but it’s time to do better this year and I can’t wait to get back into blogging a little more often. I still have this blog “project” or series that I started last year, but I’m still working on writing it. It might not be finished this first half of the year, but my goal is to finish it this year or at least be able to post the first two parts.

Hello 2025.

Welcome 2025! My start of the new years was spent at The Armory with Kaskade and Sullivan King in Minneapolis, Minnesota. I spent my New Years in the most “Feral Festival Sally” way, so you can take that however you want, but I had a really good time. Maybe a little too much fun cause I woke up with gum in my hair the next morning. I have the funniest theory on how the gum got there too. Let’s just say this: I’m a headbanger girly with super long hair and there were a lot of gum chewers around. My hair is known to SNATCH PEOPLE! I also attempted to eat grapes for the New Years, but we did it sooo wrong. Yes, we were able to sneak in grapes at the venue somehow. I ended up being rave mom and passing them out to make sure my friends ate something during the rave. I think I ate 2-4 only, but this was all after the count down. So we all ate grapes to survive the rest of the night basically. It’s so funny to look back at the videos from that night. Thank you Minneapolis for a New Years that I’ll never forget!

For 2025, I want to do the same method with my goals and writing their intentions. I’m planning to repeat the same list and add new ones. I’m hoping to can accomplish more goals this year than I did in 2024. My vision for 2025 is to always live my best life, to be happy, love always and to be better. It’s another year to build the life that I want and deserve. I went in to 2025 as the same me, but a more experienced me. Still the same person, but I have something different about me. I’m still learning if it’s a good or bad thing or if it’s just a phase. This year I am digging deeper into myself and I’m protecting myself more than ever before. I’m also going into things with a different perspective. I posted this before and I’ll say it again here:

If you saw me, you absolutely did see me. If you heard me say something, I absolutely said it and said it with my chest. I’m done with playing the high road. We are not hiding in 2025. Respectfully ♡

I promise that I will be out here living my life for myself. Take it as my ‘villain era’, me setting up more boundaries, or me seeking my full potential, whatever. I said it here.

Here are a few goals and the intentions behind it, that I would like to see myself accomplish in 2025. It’s from both the 2024 and 2025 list.

୨୧ Healing. I want to heal all the parts of me that have been through the ringer over and over again. I want to heal the parts of me that easily get triggered. I accept that if the healing means I end up feeling hateful, then that’s how it ends up. I can’t end everything on love all the time, no matter how much I want that. Let it go and let things play out the way that it does. I was able to do it once, I know that I definitely can do it again. Be at peace and be comfortable and fine with that peace.
୨୧ More journaling and blogging. I know that journaling and blogging helps me with all my emotions, so why deprive that outlet from myself? I’m a person who feels a lot and holds all those feelings. Release it, stop holding on to them for so long. Let them go. I also love to journal and blog, it’s good for me. I have made connections with others through it. I’m no savior, but I’m a person and being a person speaks loud volumes.
୨୧ Love and happiness ♡ This is the 2025 revised version. I want to still be more loving in everything and I want to remember 2025 as happy. The love this year is more me orientated. I choose that love for me, I choose that happiness for my life, for my future. Whatever that looks like, but it’s self focused vs. what I did before. I worked on myself to reach an ‘us’, but this year I’m working on myself to reach a me. If an ‘us’ happens to appears this year, then that is something that fits around me and not the other way around. (No tea here, sorry. ‘Us’ is not a specific person, it’s general use.)

2024, you were wrong, but you were right to be wrong. Goodbye 2024.
2025, your new life is going to cost you your old one. What is meant for you, you simply cannot lose. Hello 2025.

November & December ’24 Mini Writings.

November and December seem to be one big blur to me with all the holidays, a little promotion/added position at work, end of the school semester and other personal things. I do remember November just being a huge heart tugger for me. A lot of love and sadness all in one. Although I was kept very busy until a week into January 2025, I was able to post a little more mini notes than the last few months and that I am happy with! I’m playing catch up with my blog and all the other SALLY♡THINGS social platforms this month, but more will be on the way ♡

Tuesday, November 5, 2024

I loved to my core, and you tried to find love within.

– sally.things

Tuesday, November 12,2024

“I feel even closer to you now. You always let me talk about how I feel.”

– sally.things

Tuesday, November 19, 2024

Allow flowers to grow in between the concrete of your grief.

– sally.things

Friday, November 29, 2024

I am safe within my own love. I forgive myself for over giving to others.

– sally.things

Monday, December 9, 2024

People can still see the light in you, even when you can’t.

– sally.things

Tuesday, December 10, 2024

“Someone dreams about what it will mean to be with someone like you.”

– sally.things

Tuesday, December 17, 2024

Give yourself some grace & find some peace in the truth.

– sally.things

September & October ’24 Mini Writings.

Only two little writings for the months September and October. Very little posted, very little was said or needed to be said.

Thursday, September 19, 2024

“What you feel is what you attract. So if you assume or consume the idea that you’re lacking, that’s exactly what you’ll be waking up and having – absence for breakfast.”

– sally.things

Friday, October 18, 2024

Sometimes everything sucks and honestly that’s okay, you’ll get through it eventually.

Everything sucks for me right now, but I’ll get through it eventually.

– sally.things

On To The Next – November.

If October was about healing, clarity and truths, then November has to be about reflection, love and gratitude. October gave me clarity and many truths. It’s November now – on to the next.

New month, new intentions and new affirmations.

November Intentions

Intentions are like goals, but are more mindset focused whereas goals are focused on completing a task. Whatever October came to you about, make sure you continue to follow through with it and nourish yourself. Be kind, be gentle. ♡

୨୧  Practice Stillness: This month is for settling – for myself that is. November is for me to practice being still and enjoying the present moment without my daily stresses or worries. Practice being still in all moments whether it’s bad or good. Practice stillness in the silence even if it’s being loud.
୨୧  Stay Focused: I got a little derailed last month, so here’s to getting back on track and staying focused. Also making sure that I have my focus set on what is right. I am not the main focus, there’s others. Focus on what is right. I was offered more work that is along the lines of my business marketing degree, so I need to make sure that I stay on top of that. Be relentless in this, good things will come.
୨୧ No Anger, All Love: It’s always all love and always have been. I still have a little bit of these qualities and still working on it, but over time I’ve learned that it’s easier to live with the least amount of anger in your heart. I can be upset and disappointed all that I want, but it is not easy to keep anger inside and carry it around. It’s just not me. Let it go, do all in love and find your own peace. This is not a weakness, it’s actually a huge strength.

November Affirmations

Affirmations to manifest and to guide/shape your mindset. Say it out loud as often as you will like. Say it loud and proud, say it for you. ♡

୨୧ I accept my feelings as they are.
୨୧ I am willing to believe every thing will work out, even when it feels like it doesn’t.
୨୧ I lean on those who offer me support.
୨୧ I honor the changes that are happening within and around me this November.
୨୧ I gave this my all, that does not make me any less.
୨୧ I allow myself to take a break and do something I love.
୨୧ I find inspiration in peacefulness of November.
୨୧ I am confident and secure in myself and allow others to be exactly who they are.
୨୧ I give myself time to process feelings before I react or respond.
୨୧ I choose to have the strength to move on to healthier relationships.
୨୧ I will step out of my comfort zone today and do something new.

This section is a little more personal to me, but like always, it’s just as much for you if you need it. All I have to say is thank you ♡

“You are deserving of all the beautiful things manifesting into your life. The trash took itself out, so you just do you. Be gentle to yourself and take all the time you need to heal that pretty little heart of yours.“

“But as a girl’s girl – You’re doing the right thing for yourself.“

“You’re a good person with a beautiful soul, so give yourself grace. You did nothing wrong and it’s not that you weren’t enough. Don’t forget that.“

“For what it’s worth don’t let it fuck you up. We are too young to be not living our life/being the best version of ourselves.“

“Don’t lose yourself in who you become especially when you’re on your healing journey.“

“i think in these times my favorite saying to hear is ‘let it go, you’re exactly where you need to be and something better will come along.’ i hope you bask in the times you feel great cause you deserve it.“

Wishing that November shows you all that you have so many things to be thankful for and that you are loved, enough, and deserve all the best. I’m wishing that you accept that you are loved, enough and deserve all the best. Do what is right and with love. It’ll come back to you 10x when the time is right. I hope everyone gets the day they deserve. There’s so much more to life, so go there. ♡

July & August ’24 Mini Writings.

July and August flew by so fast. I will miss the summer months. Until next year my friend ♡ Not so many mini writings for these two months, but once that weather changes and winter blues hit you’ll start to see a lot more. Mini writings = mini readings.

July 9, 2024

Your life is a book. You have chapters and every chapter has a story. Like a book, you read each line and feel each word and that’s exactly what you should do with your life. Be in the moment with each line and live each word, good or bad. It’s part of your story, your chapter, your book.

– sally.things

Thursday, July 25, 2024

“You were wrong, but you were right to be wrong.”

– sally.things

Sunday, July 28, 2024

Sometimes you have to let yourself and body know that you appreciate all that’s it’s done and is doing for you.

You have to stop and thank your body and mind for all that it has been put through.

Nourish your self, mind and body.

– sally.things

Tuesday, August 6, 2024

The end is none of your business until it actually happens.

– sally.things

Then and Now.

I probably have typed about this in the few blogs I wrote before, but never finished. Fair warning, be prepared to read a little more of this in other blogs if they ever get posted. So far it’s the only thing that comes to my mind when I try to sit down to blog, so it’s something that needs to get out and hopefully after I can blog about other things. I feel like a broken record sometimes. I blog a lot about healing and my journey, it’s all I know right now. It is currently what’s going on in my life. Then and now. I wouldn’t quite call this a drunk thoughts blog, but I did have a good chug of some strawberry sake. Just a bit to loosen up and be not so in my head about sharing this. I actually find it hard to share this side of me because it feels super and very vulnerable of me. Maybe a part of me feels embarrassed, maybe because it still gets me in my feels or that I haven’t yet fully processed it. It’s hard for me to express because I simply do not know where I’m quite at with it all. Whatever it is, here I try to go.

These summer months, I have really compared my current self to my 2023 self. If I could describe myself this summer it would be: confident, strong, happy, healing, thriving, joyful, sober, living life to the fullest, a normal person. If I were to describe summer Sally 2023 it would be: sad, but grateful, stressed, alcohol driven, burnt out, lost, fun, goal driven, and hurt. What two very different and confusing versions of me.

A word that best described me then is lost. A word that best describes me now is healing, but of course I would not be who I am today if it wasn’t for that lost version of me. Looking back I’m actually very grateful for that part of my life (not the problems, but the lessons) and very proud of how I managed, even though I was very hurt. I sat with myself every day and I listened to my cries, I listened to my thoughts, I felt the hurt. I sat with every emotion and let them take their turn. I sat with all my doubts and gave them the time they needed. I sat there and cried out every tear in my body almost every night until there was nothing left. Some people might think it’s pretty pathetic, but it was what I needed to do for me. That was my way of trying to comfort myself. I gave myself that safe space. Now, I still have that safe space, but it’s more for the appreciation of my happiness, celebration of small steps on my healing and the new self love that I have for myself. I won’t say I’m completely on the other side, but it’s definitely a positive path.

I did something that I never thought or saw myself doing and that was to stop engaging and going silent. I let go of any hope and expectation, I let go completely. That’s such a hard thing to do. To let things go free and to let things come to or go from you. I ignored and pushed everything away as much as I could until I realized that it was something that was trying to come to me. I really crawled into my own little shell and if you weren’t someone I saw in my daily life, I unfortunately didn’t reach out to or interacted with for a bit. My social battery was fighting so hard, but my emotional side won. I’m a person who tries to act fine when I’m not, but in reality my emotions literally leak out of my pores and you can tell how I am through my body language and facial expressions. I pulled away for a bit so people didn’t have to see that side of me, ask me anything and I didn’t have to keep pretending. I’m sorry to my friends and family for that and I’m also very thankful that everyone understood that I needed some space. I put myself first and really focused on nothing, but myself and moving forward. One positive that did come out of it was my decision on schooling. Now, because of then, I still am continuing my education and I feel more comfortable with being truly vulnerable in front of others even if I feel stupid. It is not a burden. Now, I can thank the ‘then me’ and comfort any part of her that I still have left with the ‘now me’.

One thing that I learned from this and in my therapy sessions are to acknowledge all these different parts of me, listen to what they need to say, validate them and thank them. Practicing this has helped build a better relationship within myself with myself. Practicing this has allowed to me forgive myself, love all the different parts of myself, remember my worth, remember what I deserve, growth, healing, forgiving others and most importantly not to hurt others because of my own hurt. One day, I’ll be at the end with the rainbows and unicorns or in my case, a room filled with anything and everything Hello Kitty.

This was really building up in my head and I tried to avoid blogging more on it, but I guess I still have a lot to say. If you are still reading this, thank you. Sending lots of love out. Then and Now. ♡