Live Your Best Life – Page 3

A Life For Me.

Sometimes you dream about a life for yourself and it’s simply just a dream to you. It doesn’t feel achievable at all. That’s what I feel 100% about mine. My dreams seem unattainable at times because of the way that life has been dealt to me and honestly just how I am as a person. I am someone who will puts others before myself at anytime. I just can’t help it. It’s a great trait, but it has also caused me to stop living for myself. If you’re like that too, I’m here to tell you that it’s okay to step back and start living for yourself. It’s the only way to get to your dreams. You are your own roadblock.

A long time ago, I attended college, but I pretty much dropped out before the end of the year. Long story short, I made myself available more to my family and put my own life path to the side. It stuck and continued on for years and school was not a thing that could happen for me. I tried many times to reenroll, but I felt like if I decided to not be as available, then I was being selfish and I couldn’t let my tiny little humans have that type of inconsistency in their life. I don’t think I would change it if I had the chance to go back, but I do wonder a lot where I would be if I had chosen myself first.

The good thing is once you find a better way to juggle life and a better way to express your boundaries, then you can start working at your dreams. It took me moving away to a different state to learn all that and being away for a bit to even have the space to think about myself. So once you find your way, it’ll get better. Don’t be afraid of what others will think or feel because those around you, that love you, will always support you. I’m moving forward in small steps and changes are slowly happening for me. My dreams are looking a little better and I think I can actually name specific goals for myself now. I know you can make it happen for yourself too! Start living your life for you ♡

I Just Want to Love You.

I can love your tears and the way you love too hard. I’ve learn to love the way you feel emotions and how deeply you hurt. I’m doing as much loving as I can while you go through what you are going through.

But sometimes, I just want to love your smiles and I just want to love your glow. I want to love your warmth, your laughs, your spark. I want to love the person you are when you feel the fullest. I want to love you the way you want to be loved, the way you deserve to be loved. Don’t worry, take your time, but you have to get there first.

I just want to love you. I just want to love me. I’m not done loving me yet.

Just A Little Lost.

As I’m entering this phase of my life, I can’t help but to feel a little lost. Even though I’m back to the environment that I grew up in, I’m not the same person. I don’t have the same goals, I’m not looking to pick up where I left off or behind. I want to say everything is the same as how I left it, but it’s not. Things have changed. I some what feel like maybe I don’t belong here or fit in as well as I did. With all that going on, some things do feel the same, but I don’t feel the same way about it. How do you go from a place that you only ever knew, leave for a little over a year, then come back and it almost feels like a new place to you?

Identity crisis? Feeling like an outsider? Did I grow out from this place that fast?
I want different things for myself and I came back to do that, but how really different are the things I want? Can I even get to those here? Where do I belong, where do I feel settled? A thought that comes across a lot lately is did I make the right move or did I just set myself back? I don’t know any of these answers and that’s something I have to try to be okay with. It all has me feeling lost. I thought I had it figured out and that what I saw was clear as day. The reality of it is that it’s not clear as day and it’s actually more confusing. I’m feeling lost.

I know it won’t be like this forever and I just have to let go of the control that I would like to have in my life and let things go and flow. I know things that are meant to be will find its way to me. I know. It’s just hard to keep that positive mindset all the time when I’m not feeling positive all the time. Things take time, but sometimes I feel like I don’t have patience to wait. Things will come when you stop looking for it, so I need to stop looking. I need to be okay with feeling lost for a bit.

Hello Late Twenties, It’s 27!

AHHHH! I hit my late twenties. I don’t know if I should be excited or sad about it. It’s kind of like your sophomore year in high school where everything is the same. Nothing exciting or important really happens, you’re just older. I’m now 3 years closer to 30 and I heard your 30’s are better. I’m waiting on that cause I need it, BAD.

Do I expect anything for my 27th year of life? Not really, I think I’m done with expecting anything. What my twenties has taught me so far is that life is never the way you think it will go. You have to learn to adjust and fight your way through whether you like it or not. You’ll make tons stupid mistakes, which lead to good life lessons and good stories. You also do tons of self healing and it’s so hard, but this is the perfect time for all of it. This is really your time to set yourself and your future up. Your twenties are meant to be for living your best life like traveling, love, friendships, family, educations, jobs, etc. It’s to feed your soul without anyone else in mind, just you. Your twenties are also for you to learn the negatives or downsides of yourself and others, heartbreaks, and constantly getting pushed down. All you can do is get back up and work your way through. I still have 3 more years of this?? Can I say I kind of hate it here HAHHAHA. But really though, I’m going through the thick of it and it’s not even THICC with two C’s..

I would like to say that I am super grateful that I am surrounded by love from both friends and family. Life gets in the way and you tend to forget how much people actually care for you or that there’s even good people in the world. I really appreciate every message or post. Thank you for taking time out of your day! So with that being said here are some pictures and videos that I got. I suck at remembering to take pictures and capturing videos, so I’m glad someone did. No matter how embarrassing or how rough I look, I’m happy to have made these memories ♡

What I would like this year and for the next few or even forever is to continue living with loving eyes and just seeing things to finally start falling into place. I’m ready to be settled, but not settled as in marriage, starting a family or having kids (all that is still fine of course if it happens). I’m ready to feel settled within myself and see what I can do for me. My advice for getting older is to make those memories, be kind to others, be kind to yourself and live your best life.

Here’s to another year of life, lets slide into my late twenties. Here’s to 27! ♡