Can I just start with a WTF IS HAPPENING 2020? I really had a rough 2019, so I was excited to walk into a new year and leave all the shit behind, but then things just got crazy in a different way. I was already feeling lost before the quarantine and overwhelmed with work and trying to have a social life.
Quarantine was kind of rough for me to adjust too in the beginning. I actually felt a little more overwhelmed and lost because of all of the restrictions. I’m use to working a lot and my life just being busy all the time with my job, my relationship and with friends. Working 60 hours a week and having a social life is tough. I think I was only getting 4-6 hours of sleep a night. Going from constantly busy to not having any work and not being to able to hang out with friends was a drastic change for me. I didn’t know what to do with all that free time that I was given and my hobbies are going out and doing non essential things. With nothing being opened and outdoor things closing and opening back up randomly, I felt like there wasn’t much to do. I pretty much had that winter seasonal depression feeling.
Things are better now and I ended up making this blog to occupy my time. Some things I’ve learned from quarantine is how much I appreciate my friends and being able to hang out with them in person. Another is how much I love being outdoors and how little I did outdoor things. Because I worked so much before, I didn’t have time to go on walks, hikes, or even to a beach. So being able to do that again was refreshing. Having outdoor picnics, getting takeout foods from new restaurants and taking little outdoor walks really helped get rid of those negative feelings. There’s still tons of things changing as the states start to open back up, but i’m adjusting to it a lot better than before. Even though, this had some negative impacts on parts of my life it has bought me some time to figure out how live like a normal person again. When things start coming back close to regular life, I know how to keep myself happy and not overwhelmed and hating my life.
A lot of events that I was planning on going too got cancelled, but it just give me room to plans more adventurous, outdoorsy ones. I can’t wait for summer to go into full effect.
