Things Will Get Better.

It seems like I’ve been telling myself that a lot more often. Things will get better. Little end of the year update, I’m not doing that great, but that’s okay because it’s not the end of the world for me. I’m just a little more emotional and sensitive, so it feels a lot worse then what it really is. I know I can get through, but damn it really do be like this. There’s not much that I want to vent out right now because that is just a post of it’s own. *ahem, ahem* you’ll see it later and it’ll explain about 80% of why I’ve been sooooo like this. I just have my own demons that I need to deal with. Holiday season without my family is getting to me too. I didn’t think it would so much, but I miss the shit out of them. Back in Michigan, I wasn’t home much or barely saw my family, but at least I saw them. I don’t even get that now because I’m in another state. That’s been hard. What’s even harder is not seeing my friends on a daily basis like I did before. Now they are my everything. I honestly saw them more than my family. That’s what makes me sad the most, my friends aren’t with me. I know we’re friends forever and we’ll always be together, but you guys are my mf heart. My life feel less fulfilled without spending that time with you guys :’)

I’ve been trying to figure out what’s got me down bad and why I’m feeling more and more less of who I am. I built my personality off my friends in a way, who am I without them LOL. Sounds bad, but it’s true. I know who I am without them, but I like the version of me with them. She’s happy. I just do better around people and being social. My friends are truly inspiring and probably one of my biggest supports. Haters will say “well that’s why you have your bf too” yes, I do and I’m so lucky that I do, but look… I got some issues… and I need multiple validations from more than just one person. I lack the support and needs growing up, but I won’t get into that. That’s gonna be saved for my therapist. All I know is when I visit home, I feel like I thrive, I feel like me. I am me. Grand Rapids got my mf heart. BUT YOU KNOW, I made this choice and things will get better.

Sally, things will get better.

Author: SALLY♡THINGS

Hello, Sally here. A thirty year old trying to discover her way through life. I've started this blog so I can get a little deeper and more intimate with my thoughts. I enjoy journaling on my own time, so I can go back and read for reminders and remember life lessons. I decided to expose some of that vulnerability in hopes that someone else can take something from it too. This is for me as much as it is for others, so this is a little something for us who just feel. ♡ View all posts by SALLY♡THINGS