Tag: Slim Jim

You Were There Until You Weren’t.

You were there and then you were gone. You disappeared even though I still saw you around. You were there for me. Every time. I’m not sure what happened or what went through your head, but something just changed. I was there for you right before, I was there, in fact I was the only one that was there for you that night. If that did not prove anything then I don’t know. Now I can’t even explain. It’s like you still want to be there, but you aren’t or you won’t. You were there for me and then all of a sudden you weren’t.

You were there for me until you weren’t. Same thing. I didn’t even see it coming. You were there for me until you weren’t and I still can’t wrap my head around that. I spin in circles if I even try to understand. What went on in your head? Did you spin in as many circles as I did? I was there for you, I definitely proved that. You were too… well until you weren’t. Are you still like that?

You were there for me until you weren’t. Actually, I don’t really know if this is a statement that I can really say about you because were you really ever there? This one really messed me up, it really laid down the foundation of everything that I’m going to know or put up with. You are there for me now, but did it take all this time to get here? Are you really there for me though or are you there for the person you wish I was? The version that you want me to be, a version that is not the real me.

Travel Back to Twenty Twelve.

Where has the time gone? It feels like the year 2012 was another lifetime. A lot of the people that were super close to me, we either fell out or don’t even talk to each other anymore. A lot has changed since then, but then again a lot has stayed the same.
I was packing and a song that I use to listen to started playing. Instantly I felt super happy as if I was listening to it back then, just singing it on top of my lungs with the windows down driving to where ever we decided that day. My best friend and I had many adventures then and that’s when I met a lot of my current best friends for the first time. That summer changed my life in many different ways, all for the better, even if it took a while to see that. Not everyone is meant to stay in your life and a lot of things are suppose to stay as just memories. Thankfully, I have these memories and they actually still teach me a lesson to this day. “Whenever I think of us, I always see a smile. I was happy for a while.”
Facebook memories also threw in some pictures from that time period and it seemed all to coincidental, so here I am. 2012 baby Sally walked, so 2020 Sally could run. Oh, the things I wish I could tell my 2012 self, but I don’t think I would change a thing about the past. I needed to experience all of it to be who I am now, to know the things I know now, and being able to feel the way I do now.
I do miss the v-necks and picnic shorts though, haha. I do miss my best friend too. They always made sure I knew that they loved me for me and that everything I started to doubt about myself was just in my head. That will always stick with me. “So long, do you know you saved me?”

It’s nice to be reminded of things you forget. It always makes me appreciate what I have now more. “Maybe the past holds me up, but the present get me through.”

SALLY ♡ T